Church talks

Oh this is a memory I can now laugh at...
You know when you have something important to do the next day you always have a nightmare that you wake up late or miss it....yaaa
About three years ago we had just moved into our ward that we are in now and were asked to give talks in Sacrament meeting. Our meetings started at 8am. For those of you who know us well that was early. Caden spoiled us rotten and slept until 9:30 sometimes 10am back then. I know those days are LONG gone now:) So Caden was 6 months old at this time. Okay so Saturday was a special day, it was the day we got ready for Sunday:)(primary song) Thank goodness we really did get everything ready, our clothes ironed and layed out, and we went over our talks together. So we get to bed around 11pm and feel pretty good about the next day. Well I wake up on my own thinking its maybe 6am....NO it is 7:55am. No Really, church started in 5 minutes. It was seriously like the scene in home alone where they are late for the airport. I yell "BRIAN we are so LATE!!!" He jumps out of bed and I am freaking out. He had a plan. He gets ready and goes to church to let then know we were still giving our talks and to sit on the stand and I hurry and get Caden and myself ready fast and go second. Ready set go! He gets ready in 5 minutes due to our prep the night before;) and I hop in the shower get out, get dressed and give caden a bath and get him dressed. Do my hair and make-up..get this...all in 35 minutes. That has never happened and probably never will again! So I get to church at 8:35. Brian is a fourth through his talk as I walk in. My mom, grandma B and sister were there to listen to our talks and handed Caden to her and walked up to the stand and sat down. My face was bright red and wouldn't make eye contact with my mom. I just know what she was thinking. The Bishop looks over and gives me a smile and a look like "so glad you could make it". So my heart is finally slowing down as Brian finishes his talk.-side note-Brian gives the best talks, always so uplifting and testimony strengthening, it is one of the things I love most about him-So Brian closed on such an inspiring note and I get up and say "Well I usually like to be fashionably late, but I think I crossed the line". So I give my talk and it goes really well. After the meeting people are coming up and just laughing WITH me and telling me only I could get away with something like that. What does that mean, only I could get away with that. I was never one to get away with ANYTHING. So my mom was so embarrassed for us and said how could we not wake up in time. I seriosly do not know..... But like I said I can laugh at this now, and we do. Oh and we havent been asked to speak since. Thats ok:)

three years ago today.....

Three years ago today we were at the court house and Caden's adoption was being finalized. It took 6 months for it to be finalized and it was such an amazing day! We found out just a week before that september 22 was the day we needed to be at court! When we got there we saw so many families who were just as excited as we were to have our families legally bound! My family and Brian's parents were there to support us on that special day. I remember crying as the judge was asking us all the questions like will you take care of every need he has... It felt so great to look at Brian and have us say "YES, we will" together. Look how cute caden is!! Oh I loved those cheeks!! He is such a big boy now! I'll say it again..Time goes by too fast!!!

Then on september 24 we were sealed as a forever family in the temple, I wrote a post about it last year and you can read it here.
I look back on those days with such a humble heart and so happy that Caden is my first son and he will be such a great example to his brothers!!!! We Love You Caden!!!!!!

Monday's with Mom

Me and My hot mama in 2003

Back before we had kids I worked, yes I worked. I was a leasing consultant and loved my job(well most of the time and not as much as I love my mom job now, diapers and all) but I worked with fun girls and worked hard. My days off were Sunday and Monday, and every Monday I spent with my mom, and that was the best.
For quite a few years, every Monday my mom would come and pick me up in the mornings and we'd spend the whole day together. Whether it was running errands, shopping, or watching movies, we would have so much fun. Nothing would interfere with our Monday's. I could and still can talk with her about anything. I have so many wonderful memories of those days and will forever treasure them. Love you mom!!

How I met your Father

July 24, 1999 was the day I met my Brian. It was the day our lives changed. I'm gonna share some details of that great day. I had just moved here from California 3 weeks before. I made some super cute friends and they invited me up north for the pioneer celebration. I love roadtrips so I was in. It was a Saturday night and we were deciding what to do and one of the girls said she heard there was a party at some guys house she had a crush on. So off we went. When we got there we walk in and everyone is just kind of sitting around (boring) There is also no where to sit except for one dining room chair in the corner so me and emily share the chair. Thats when I heard a cute voice say "you can come sit by me" I looked up and saw him. He was so so cute. Then I see him sitting on a love seat with a girl next to him. I say no I'm fine. A second later he said "come on that doesn't look comfortable, come sit by me" The peer pressure was too much so I stand up and sit on the love seat with this cute guy. He starts talking to me and I'm just answering one word answers back and no eye contact. VISUAL: it's 1999 so overalls were cool and I was still 17 with clear braces. I guess he senses my awkwardness and says "don't worry, I think braces are sexy". Ok those are famous words in our house:) I ate that right up and started smiling braces and all.

Infertility

This is a memory that in part makes me who I am and what makes me a better mom. As I look at my children now and think back at what it took to get them here, I felt I needed to share a short version of our journey.
I have had two very serious miscarriages which really should have taken my life (dramatic ,i know but true). I have had two ectopic pregnancies which with both I have been rushed into surgery and each time one of my tubes had ruptured. That was the reason for our infertility struggles.. My first one was in 2001,I was just 19 and had been married only 15 months. We were excited to be expecting our first baby, due September 24,2001, but knew from the beginning something wasn't right. After my surgery, Brian was so scared he slept in a chair next to my hospital bed the whole week I was there. The second was just last year after our first IVF. We were totally taken by this one. I had no clue..didn't even think it was possible to have two, but i did. I never thought I would recover emotionally from either one, and it was the lowest I have ever been. My last one, Caden had just turned two and I couldn't just lay around and be depressed. I had to me a mommy and that's what got me through. Also you know my due date from my first miscarriage was September 24, 2001, well that same date but in 2005 was the day Caden was sealed to us in the temple. It is just another confirmation that the lord knows what he is doing.
I don't share this for sympathy, I share this because there are so many women suffering through miscarriages and infertility. I felt very alone going through mine.I mean it is such a righteous desire to be a mom and for it to be so impossible for some makes it that much harder.
I feel that going through all that makes me a better mom. I wanted this for so long so all the good times and the bad..I'll take it all!