Infertility

This is a memory that in part makes me who I am and what makes me a better mom. As I look at my children now and think back at what it took to get them here, I felt I needed to share a short version of our journey.
I have had two very serious miscarriages which really should have taken my life (dramatic ,i know but true). I have had two ectopic pregnancies which with both I have been rushed into surgery and each time one of my tubes had ruptured. That was the reason for our infertility struggles.. My first one was in 2001,I was just 19 and had been married only 15 months. We were excited to be expecting our first baby, due September 24,2001, but knew from the beginning something wasn't right. After my surgery, Brian was so scared he slept in a chair next to my hospital bed the whole week I was there. The second was just last year after our first IVF. We were totally taken by this one. I had no clue..didn't even think it was possible to have two, but i did. I never thought I would recover emotionally from either one, and it was the lowest I have ever been. My last one, Caden had just turned two and I couldn't just lay around and be depressed. I had to me a mommy and that's what got me through. Also you know my due date from my first miscarriage was September 24, 2001, well that same date but in 2005 was the day Caden was sealed to us in the temple. It is just another confirmation that the lord knows what he is doing.
I don't share this for sympathy, I share this because there are so many women suffering through miscarriages and infertility. I felt very alone going through mine.I mean it is such a righteous desire to be a mom and for it to be so impossible for some makes it that much harder.
I feel that going through all that makes me a better mom. I wanted this for so long so all the good times and the bad..I'll take it all!